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Bituwin - image

Jeremiah 29:11. Jeremiah 29:11. For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster,to give you a future and a hope.

I cannot be triggered at all

I have a weakness. When people misjudged me or say things that is not true about me, i get upset. I care too much about other people's opinon. The worst thing is that i will try to "amend" this broken perception.

Take for instance, my sec sch teacher feels that my foundation of eng is atrocious and criticise it for the 2 freaking years. I decided to prove her wrong. I read extensively and forced myself to be exposed to english music and news. Exact revenge was on my mind.

I got E8 for eng during o level prelims.Only 2 person barely passed throughout the whole cohort. She further warned me to buck up and pull up my socks.The fueled my desire to prove her that i will shut her mouth. When i saw my grade, she sneered at me, how come i did well only in lang but did not scored well for the rest.

But the point is, i feel that i did shut her mouth up. I got B3. Like what i say, dont agitate me. I am bitey. My MT teacher was another potent guy. He was disappointed that i scored B3 for 1st round. I cried and swore to do well to shush him up. Hui and i worked our ass off. We dont like to lose.Yup, both of us did score A1 in the end. Hmm i wonder i can only do well under people's perception of my inability? Hai, should have wished that all teachers are like that, then i can do well for all. But then again, i think i will be damn unhappy to tackle all lor. Haha.

This time round, the UOL HRm lecturer has stepped on my toes. Hmm, she says that i dont give her complete sentences. I dont seem to know my material at all. My command of english sucks. That is why my mood swayed like typhoon yesterday. Wanted to " throw up" at hui , but somehow god stopped me to do so. NOT FAIR!!

I decided to prove her wrong. I woke at 630am to prepare today's material. I was yawning profusely. Cursing under my breath. Yup, i aced it. She praised me , but what i was smug is that i proved that i am not idoit lor!i know is childish lah. Haha. Just that i stammer and phobia of public speaking caught hold of my mind. Actually, the things that she is asked was the topic that i have been reading for the past 1 week. I am lucky that i understand that topic well. HEng ah.POkemon sms me and told her the whole situation.

She was too humble lah by saying that she might not have the same stuff as i do. The problem is that not that she dont know. Is the level of stress and public view of her answer can really make a person speechless and not confident. PLus that lecturer really smug and expect you to really offer solid stuff. If not, shut up.

After that, i did lost steam and kept quiet. Haha. SMart liao. No response is an intelligent response. But then if that is the case, how come everyone has been cursing and swearing about my weight issue, i dont display that kind of gung ho spirit leh? haha. Simple. I am confident of academic stuff which offers me security if i worked hard. But as for weight issue, i know that there are lots of ambiguities and limitations. Haha. Risks are higher. Studies are dead. My body is real. Haha.

If i really reached that weight of mine, hui will accompany me to botanical garden. Triggering that acupuncture slowly and steadily. Haha/

4/10/2007 07:40:00 am ·